Nesting Symptoms

It has begun. 

The house hunt.

It has actually been going on for sometime now. Lots of drama already! Put a bid on a house and they hated us because Matt has a receding hairline and I'm  a chunky chick. (it was one of those 'pretty onlys' neighborhoods.) Ok, not really. IT was a short sale home  and Wells Fargo owned it. Wells Fargo has been waiting on HUD to tell them if they can allow a variance on their rules so they can get us a furnace before we moved in. (That's a 4 G expense yo')

Long story short it's taking too long and we get our behinds kicked to the curb in three weeks...so yeah, the hunt is on. We are going to put a bid on another house tomorrow. Pray that everything goes well. 

My motherly instinct is beginning to grow and I FEEL it's super important for me to start preparing a nursery. I know it's really not but either I put my energy into designing a nursery or into eating Chipotle. Hmmm...I'll do both. Hopefully I can draw something up and get  scan it in and get y'alls opinion. I'm thinking a hundred acre wood nursery because I'm obsessed with Winnie the Pooh and have been since I was little. I kinda feel like Eeyore this last month. 

"All I want is a home, Nothing fancy. A umbrella would do."

At this point I think a big umbrella would do I'm so tired of looking at houses. BUT we trust the Lord has His hand in everything and He really has been watching out for us. Not only was it promised to us but we have felt it. We have seen it. We are loving it. There is nothing more secure then a life in Christ.

I would share more but my husband is about to float on here and look for a better paying job in his field. Yeah for forced initiative!:-)

And my God will supply your every need according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus. 

Phillippians 4:19

God Is Bigger Than The Boogie Man

So today was definitely one of those emotional roller coaster days. First, let's talk symptoms, wonderful, glamorous, joyous pregnant woman symptoms!  A sip or a 2 liter, it just doesn't matter. I have to pee all the time! Dizziness,headaches, and cramps are all part of the territory but PRAISE GOD no morninsickness. Woohoo!

This last weekend I kinda hit a breaking point. I've been trying to ignore my cramps assuming my body is going through a bunch of changes why not would I have excruciating cramps? But Friday night in my head I knew something just wasn't right. They were so painful they woke me up and I just cried and hollered, absolutely excruciating. I told my husband, "this can't be normal." I wasn't panicking because cramping was just one symptom of miscarrying that I had read about and I didn't have any of the others but my husband insisted on going to the doctor. So I made the call and the doctor told me she wanted to see me. After talking to the doctor and describing my pain she mentioned what I had been fearing, Etopic Pregnancy. Simply put its when the baby attaches in the fallopian tubes or somewhere where it can't grow and your forced to miscarry. Once I heard it come out of the doctors mouth I desperately tried not to think about it. 

Earlier on the way to my appointment at the hospital I was driving and talking to God and just telling Him (and honestly reassuring myself) "I trust You. " The response? "Have I ever let you down?"

In the lab waiting to give a UA I focused on His faithfulness. While I waited to check in to the Ultrasound area I reminded myself of how He really had never let me down.  As I laid on the bed and she scanned my stomach and took pictures (not saying anything at first) I kept repeating in my head "I trust You."

There he/she was. Matt has deemed him our "little peanut." The baby was right where it was supposed to be, heart beating and all. :-)

When we left the office I fought back tears.(I have the right to be emotional)

 I was so happy that I didn't need to fear and my baby was ok. Matt hugged me and said, "God is bigger then the boogie man." How deeply theological.

Psalm 56:3 "Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You."

  

I'M WHAT !?!?!?!?!

Just a normal thursday. Kiss my handsome husband as we both head off to work, him to the lab at the doctor's office and me to my cube jungle.
I had scheduled a doctors appointment like 4 weeks ago (this was a doctor who is hard to get into) for nothing serious but I had been having some reaccuring problems for months that my other doctor just wasn't fixin'. Nothing wrong with a second opinion right? I see my computer clock slowly click on to about 10:10 and I head off for my 10:30 appointment.
I was feeling a little stressed that morning. I was super behind in cube rat work and I didn't spend time with Jesus that morning. I was hoping my wait wouldn't be super long knowing this doctor was Mrs. Popularity.
"Audrey"
Sweet that didn't take long! Hop on the scale and I'm hanging out at about 140. Hmmmm, I was hoping for a little less. I just recently lost about 20lbs. After I got married I stuffed my face and put on about an additional 15 so I was at least back to wedding weight. I give the nurse the low-down about my problems and she asks about my 'Aunt Flow.' "Well, I'm about 4 or 5 days late but I'm having some serial cramps so I should be starting soon." So whats the next logical step? She ushers me to the bathroom to pee in a cup. YYYEEESSS!

As I'm waiting for the doctor sitting on the crunchy paper I was wishing I had taken some midol for my cramps. Seriously, why do we women have it so hard? (for any guys reading this I sincerily apologize, but these are the facts of life.)
I hear the nurse and doctor whispering about me just outside the door. That always annoys me. Don't they know I can pick out my name? It's never loud enough to hear what they are saying but just enough to make a sister paranoid. So anyway, doctor waltzes in and I complement her hair. It never hurts to butter-up the one with cold hands. I immediately start apologizing all over myself. "I'm so sorry for taking up your time, I know your a busy woman. I've just had some reaccuring stuff for months now and thought yoiu would say something different then my other doctor..." She patiently listens and asks me questions. She gives me some good answers that may help. Little did I know the next ten seconds was going to change my life forever.

"Ya know your pregnant?"
What did she just say? "What?"
"Your pregnant"
What.. "What?"
"Your urine test is positive, your pregnant."
"You've got to be kidding me? I'm pregnant? I'm pregnant!"
AND SCENE: FADE TO BLACK.
(Seriously, I fadded to black.)

The next thing I know my eyes are filling up with tears. Is it true? Am I crazy? Did she just say I'm 5 weeks? I thought I was just late. Doctor Surprise begins to show me paper work about proper eating and medicines to take and not to.. yadda yadda. I'm desperately trying to focus but I feel light headed. As she is talking all I can keep saying is;
"He's going to flip!" "I had no idea, I can't believe I'm pregnant!". Well we finish up and I am to say the least in a daze. In a short couple minutes I went from being a guitar rockin' newly married 24 year old who was still learning to cook to a MOM-to-be with visions of nurseries and mini-vans all dancing in her head. As I'm walking out of the office the doctor shouts out to the waiting room. "Audrey, I forgot to tell you! APRIL 2nd!"
So April 2nd...April 2nd.
The two of us become three. SO begins the journey. :-)